Current mood:

complacent

still angry
coulld be bad sleep, could be all the sugar i had today.

he went for a "Walk" whoopdiddydoo" enjoy your walk. stop talking tome about these up comming changes. I dont care where you'll be living next. as long as you are not in my face. sheesh!

I dont know how I'll survive. I think I may join a gym that will be on the way home. stop at the gym, change, do some exercise, go home. hmm, but when is dinner?

I live like I am by myself. hmmm - go figure.  I guess I am. so where was I? oh yeah, plotting my miserable life. 

work, eat, exercise, go home, chill, sleep (repeat)

exciting. too exciting for words!! maybe I should pick up some  night classes. Farfield after dark. I could take painting or something boring. it's about being with people and doing something creative.   I cant realx. I need to study on my office skills - whatever I need for my job shift. who knows what that is. I dont,   OOOOH I know - english composition and grammar would be extremely helpful. I have a couple of books to read on the subject.

a good boring read is just what I need.  it will help me write more gooder. cus I cant write so good.

anyway I will have more professional emails and other documents.

I can make it a habit to go to movies on tuesdays.
monday work out, tuesday movie, wednesday workout, thursday class, friday crash.

how about every other tuesday?

I need to walk an hour or more a day. solid walking. who has that kind of time?

I coudl do what another coworker does - fit it into my lunch hour. 15 min out and 15 back. and not suplement the walk with cookies. (that's his mistake)

anyway... blah blah blah yadda yadda.

I'm screaming for attention. but I dont know who I want it from. Hubby is annoying withhis personal hell. cant take it any more. get a job and shut the fuck up.

lonely? at my moms I wontbe lonely. my bestest bud Dusty will keep me company again. I will feel really sad when he dies. he's already 14 or so. he could go on until he's 19 but what kind of condition will he be in.

OH SHIT. I just remembered why I dont want to live at moms house - freekin cat hair. you cant escape it anywhere. it's on the towel in the bathroom!

I will bring my own towel around  the house. I dont need contamination.

I will fix the bathroom to cut down on dust and stuff.  that will be something to add to my routine - cleaning the house. the people my mom hires to "clean" wipe the dirt so the dirt is clean. I hate them. she pays these people and they dont do all that much for her.

FIRED!!